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I’ve Realized…
-No matter how hard you try, how hard you show n prove to a person, you’ll always end up being a douche bag some how…how you may ask? Well somehow caring so much ends up being over protective, taking over someone’s life, uhm, ends up expecting too much, we worry too much, insecurity cock blocks, jealousy gets in the way, etc. Yeah we not being an asshole, we js care if anyone notices it…
At any moment of your day..
-Have you ever had a thought of being lied on too behind your back? Have you ever had that feeling like you’re js getting played? Like you was js some kind of a toy to play with. Feeling like that, at some points it can feel so real that its actually happening right this moment. Feeling like everyday of your life you’re js being lied on too n having them Talk to other people behind your back like as if you’re nothing to them. As if they were like single n you are there feeling useless, feeling like an option. Ever had that feeling? Ever had those days when you feel like everything is js a game n js so iffy. It’s hard to tell what’s true n what’s not true. If only life was that easy, but its not. All we can do really, is to live each day without looking back. We make choices n don’t ever look back, who we choose to be around us lets you know who you are…
For who requested about Feeling invisible
-when your significant other is around with their friends or Talk with them, they don’t realize a lot of things…they may feel like you’re there to them but to you you may feel like you’re no where to be found. Too busy to Talk too n feel like a second option. Ever had that feeling, that feeling when you feel like they can’t even try to hit you up or have the time to Talk to you even if they’re with their friends but when you try to Talk to them its either late replies n when that happens for the most part they don’t even realize they skip what we asked about but they Talk about something else. That feeling js makes you feel alone don’t it makes you feel invisible like you’re not even there…to everyone that feels like that, js hang on, its js that moment cause sooner or later when they realize something n start to Talk to you like nothing happen n when you show them no attention, they’ll start asking what’s wrong n when you tell em they get mad over something they don’t even realize of what we see n felt. But for those who feels this way, hang on its js for that moment n it’ll be over n they’ll realize it sooner or later…keep that head up, chin up, n keep moving n try to think positive. It’s life, everything will only repeat itself so js live it, have patience, cause all it is is a matter of timing of everything…
Let’s all play a game…
Go out with someone, tell them you love them, let them know you’re always going to be there, handle eachothers situations n have it for only you two business then n if you fall for it deeper commit to them. Then once you have them, do whatever you like, Talk to other people, think of other people, handle other peoples situations, n make the one you’re with feel like they’re js an option. To win is to see how much you can take it n stay with each other, to lose well that’s easy, either can’t take it n leave, or people cheat…let the games begin…whoever wins Congrats to you all, you have someone’s heart that commits n having them change for the good for both of you n learn their mistakes js to be n to stay with you. Whoever loses, I’m sorry for your losses, keep your head up n keep moving, they’re will be someone out there…
To all people.
-Ever felt like knowing that someone else is on your significant others minds js feels like you’re js not that important n feel like you’re js not enough. After all these times they may say you’re always on there minds but having another person of the opposite sex through there minds js feels like your heart js stops for a second n js feel like you’re js there for somewhat a reason. To everyone that feels this way you all prolly feel like a second option right? N knowing it, hurts…js hang on n keep that head up high, its js a mistake that hopefully it will change n be learned…
When I needed you the most…
-you were nowhere to be found, But when I’m not around, that’s when you needed me… Feeling like js a 2nd option, not important, not enough, its like other things or people are more important n I’m js there feeling helpless n useless n only needed when feel needed. Or this is js me thinking too much… I js don’t even know what right or wrong is anymore, I’m lost n confuse, feel like a nightmare that I need to wake up on…
I wonder…
-if all the words you be saying to me are real or how many people you say those words to other people while you’re with me. I sometimes do feel alone, feel like you’re not the only one on that relationship. Ever wonder why people lose someone on a relationship, its cause people don’t see nor realize what they have in front of them until they’re gone. Js cause you have that person doesn’t mean you can go Talk to other ppl of the opposite sex n Talk to them like you have no one, you may say they’re js friends n they’re nothing to you, but think about it, would the person who you with see the same way you do? Do you say the same words to them as you say your words to me. N you guys wonder why we always ask who you talking too n all you say is a friend n they’re nothing important. N when that person breaks up with you, you ask yourself what you did wrong. So ever wonder why a lot of us feel like we are alone, not important, not enough, well there you have it, we have our insecurity, expectations, n trust issues like yall do. Maybe not the same but you’re taken by us, so have our thoughts be in yours…
- From someone I know who’s dealing this feeling…
-If a mistake tends to happen repeatedly n doesn’t make a change, then it isn’t a mistake, its a choice. Mistakes shouldn’t happen repeatedly, it js happens unexpectedly w/ out even noticing it happen, unless you knew it, then its not a mistake, it was your choice. You either realize it or someone tells you…
My last days being online, I may be back one day…
I am glad that I stayed awake till this time js to hear my dad having trouble coughing n breathing. I’m glad to say to be proud on checking up on my dad n woke up everyone n called the ambulance to come by. Mom n SIS followed the amublance to the hospital while I’m here watching the house. I am here n will not be going to sleep till I hear from them. I have work in the am but i’ll sacrifice n give all my prayers n blessing for my dad. Feel n get better soon dad I love you, Mahal kita <3 <3
I can’t go on w. A day without unsolving a situation from yesterday…
- so if there’s nothing you can do n the things you do js goes wrong n all you think you can do is js sit there n watch, well I’m sorry as well for not forgetting what happens at night time when we argue n js forget like nothing happened the next day especially not solving anything. So what am I gna do, js sit there n watch as well like nothing happened n didn’t solve anything? I’m sorry that I’m not that type of person js to forget something that’s unsolved. I’m a person that want to solve things out not running away from it. So I’m sorry…I’m js not that type of person to forget what is unsolved…
The true reason why I am who I am…
-Why I have insecurity, Why I worry, Why I have high expectations, n Why I have trust issues…Why you may ask? Well the true answer to that is that…
I’m Scared…Scared of losing you.
- I know I may come out to be a complicated person n that I know I’m not a perfect person, so I’m so sorry for being the way I am, for being this way towards you. I never meant to hurt you, it’s just how I am n how my past has done to me, I know I’m suppose to let go of my past but I just can’t, my past put me through so much that it’s hard to let it beside me, this is why I am to be…I know how much I hate being myself to be hurting you cause of how I am, I just hope you’re still willing to hang on n stick by me through whatever the outcome that comes…I may not be the ideal person you ever wanted, but I’m here trying everyday n telling myself everyday just to live life with you, I’m trying the best as I can be. I would understand if you don’t want to be with me cause of it but…I am trying…Truly I am n I’m Sorry…
My thoughts at the moment…
-Oh my heartache, my insecurity, my worries, my high expectations, go away please, you’re ruining my life…
I wonder…what if we all change life for a day…
-to see a difference of how many people have you say the things you be telling me each day n night…like good morning, good night, I’m always here, how many people you txt or call, etc. Am I the only one or there’s others in it. Am I js in between, am I getting on the way, am I js an option. Am I here js for your needs n have other ppl be there also when I’m not around at the moment? Am I js a side person? Am I not enough? Yeah I understand when ppl say your significant other may flirt or being friendly w. Other ppl cause in the end of the day they have you. But I mean doesn’t that sound like you’re js an option to them? I mean shouldn’t they having there attention to you not anyone else. So like you say we should let them be that way n have them not look bad, but what if we do the same, we end up being a bad person n come out as a player right? What if we change life for a day, would ppl realize the difference? Are we being complicated or we’re js caring. Which one is it? I’m js saying that if you truly love someone your attention, your eyes, your life, your feeling, should be on one person, so why act like you’re in a relationship with other ppl. Why do things or say things to other ppl like how you’re to the one you’re with. Don’t you all see it? Do you all know the difference or are we js all complicated n blinded to see what’s right in front of us. I guess we are js all complicated people n not understanding the true meaning of a realationship. We are all a victim which in the case we are js all js stubborn to know/see what’s right n wrong that we say or do…I guess all we can do is try, try to see on each others points of view. All I can say is what if we live a day having to switch each others life, what happens then? I guess we will never know…but keep loving n try the best we can…
A committed relationship should be for two people…
-Not the whole world…
- There’s a difference between of “I don’t care relationship n let everyone know my business so everyone in the world could give a try to fck it up” than a “REALationship that their business is only between for them two only n be happy together.”
- When comes across others trying getting in between n know you’re taken, know to have a limit w. them n for those who doesn’t know you’re taken, let them know right away before it’s too late. Meaning you may talk to a person having them not know you’re taken or already know that you are, always give simple hints that you’re taken letting them know you have someone, unless you like to get attention to others then might as well not be in one. As you may know, letting ppl get hints that you’re taken can give them hints to either, give you space n enjoy your happiness or if a person don’t care, they’ll try to get you to break up with the person you’re with to be with them on any way n ruin your happiness. Not letting anyone know you’re taken can have 90% chance of them to like you a lot n have deep feelings for you n once they find out you’re taken, they either have a choice, to get in between your relationship by being friendly, to make rumors, dramas, bullshit that you don’t even know about to the one you’re with or appreciate that you’re happy n let you have space to be happy with your significant other…
So for those who are in a relationship, always remember, you’ve chose to be with someone for a reason not an option. You’re with them cause you want to be with them cause of how they made a difference in your life n make you happy, a true relationship will go through it all but stays no matter what, (unless you cheated on that person, some ppl may give you another chance but mostly 99% will not, so make a choice, either stay be loyal n committed or not at all. Cause we are not just someone who to be there for comfort or cause you’re lonely n you miss having someone. Love a person of how they make you happy, not to be played around with…
